Month: August 2025

So my stance has taken a complete 180 on marijuana. I’ve been vaping it lately out of my Firefly 2+ dry herb vaporizer, and it’s really helping me be at peace, even with all the stressors and dramas of life. My favorite strain as of late is Grandaddy Purple, as it’s a great Indica type strain that mellows me out and helps with aches and pains and a general sense of Zen. I know the ancient people of Kemet (Egypt) used to use it during full moons and as a sacred medicinal herb. They used it to enlighten themselves and open their chakras further.

People in our day kind of mis-use marijuana. It’s not meant to smoke and have raunchy sex or smoke and do a drive-by shooting on your “opps”. It’s meant to help you achieve homeostasis within your body, mind, and spirit. The people who tell me they have anxiety when they smoke, I’d be willing to bet money they’ve done negative things while under it’s influence and when they smoke it triggers that guilt and/or anxiety. They need to do some heavy meditation to break that connection to the bad feelings and only move forward with positivity and reverence for the plant’s medicinal properties.

I’m glad I gave the flower another chance and that it has worked out this well. I’ve been smoking again for about 4 months now and I feel good with the plant’s effects on me. I wish I could partake of it more often, but I normally vape before work to prepare my mind for a stressful day, and then after work to unwind from that same stress. It’s simply my coping mechanism with being a wage slave and working most of my waking hours. It helps me to be creative with my music and helps me focus on the music more-so than if I didn’t vape it.

My creativity has definitely increased since I started smoking again. It helps me to not rush the process of making a song/beat, and just enjoy the journey. I can be a very “rushy” type person, so herb just helps me chill out a bit and mellow out. I probably have some form of ADD as well, and the Indica variety of Grandaddy Purple slows my thinking down and helps me focus on a long-winded tasks like writing, making music, or Djing. I love to toke and write in my journal. Just about my thoughts on what’s going on in the world and different things like that. I need to start writing rhymes, because from what I’ve tried it seemed pretty decent, especially when compared with the mumble-mess the young generation is being pushed to put out to the masses.

Overall, I would suggest giving “Mary Jane” a shot. Since it’s legal in most states now, there’s no reason to not give it a try and see if it will help you deal with stress and take some of the weight off your shoulders. There’s a lot of strains to try, so find yours and don’t give up until you do. It’s out there, you just need to find it. Once you do, make sure you always respect the plant and keep the thinking at a high level and in a positive space. L8r!

So a nice lady at my job got canned yesterday. It was really a sad situation and I feel sorry for her. She was very nice and to me, she was doing a very good job. She was agreeable and helpful in so many ways that I’m not sure management was aware of. I’m not sure why she was fired, but I wish her the best and hope that she lands on her feet.

I know she was working a second job to make ends meet, and I hope she gets another assignment with her security company so she doesn’t have to worry and struggle about how she’s going to pay rent, pay bills, etc. She’d been at the company for a long time, and I guess that didn’t count for anything with the people who made the decision to fire her. She never did anything negative to my knowledge, she never stole from the company, she didn’t get into fights and arguments with people. She was always a ray of sunshine when you came in the AM every day because she worked at the front desk.

Corporate America doesn’t care about us. We are all disposable to them and they only want to use you for your skills and talents and they figure they are doing you a favor by hiring you. Things have changed so much in the work place since back in the day. Back in the day, the employer valued the employee. You would get Christmas bonuses and had a retirement pension after you aged out and left the work force. It’s not like that any more. Some places offer pensions, usually government jobs, but for the most part, these companies will offer is a 401k with some degree of them matching your contributions.

It’s really messed up that they can just fire you with no severance pay or any such thing, and you’re just out on your ass and have to scramble to put your life back together. Firing someone is a very big deal for the person it’s happening to. It should be a last resort as long as the person is doing their job to a decent degree. Short of them going into the CEOs office and taking a crap on his desk, you shouldn’t look to shake up someone’s life like that. People have no empathy and don’t give a shit because it’s not them. It’s part of the reason why I’ve grown to hate people. They are judgmental, un-empathetic, and selfish for the most part.

Nice people always get the short end of the stick in this f’d up world and I’m tired of it. What is going on? One of my co-workers told me she got canned because she was late to work a lot. Its like, we live in one of the WORST traffic environments in the world and you’re going to give someone a hard time for being late to work? That’s stupid and it’s dumb and it’s WRONG! That chick was a sweetheart and it really puts a sour taste in my mouth with the company I’m working for. End rant/

So I woke up pretty early today. Around 4am. Actually, that’s about the time I usually wake up. I like to be up before everyone else. I wish Ralph’s and Walmart were open that early so when I need to get water, cat food, or something else, I can go without dealing with a huge traffic jam of people that you normally find during the day hours.

It’s Sunday and I plan on spending the day at home. I’m going to work on music and DJ, as well as read a few books. I just finished reading “Making Beats” by Joseph G. Schloss and it was a good book. It didn’t teach you how to make beats, rather it gave you an insight to the history of beat-making and the mindset behind being a good/great beat-maker. I really enjoyed the read and it’s another book I can add to my collection as completed.

I bought an Ethiopian Bible recently, and I want to read that from cover to cover as well. A lot of people say it’s the “real” Bible, as opposed to the altered King James version. From what I’ve read so far, I can definitely see that being the case. The Ethiopian Bible has books like “The Book of Enoch” and others that were omitted from the King James version for some reason. I’m looking forward to reading it and seeing what knowledge I can glean from it. Hopefully there’s something in there that will be an “aha” moment.

I bought a notebook from Walmart that I’m going to be using as my rhyme notes. I want to write my lyrics in it that I’m going to use over my beats. I enjoy writing, but it’s definitely not easy to write a decent rhyme. It’s completely different from the journalistic type approach I typically take in writing, so it will be interesting to see if I can adapt my style and make something worth listening to. I’m trying to avoid swearing/cussing, as well as trying to avoid negative topics like killing people, degrading women, and hard drug use. I have to keep to those tenants and make good, informative, relatable music.

I also need to study to take the Security+ certification so I can hopefully land a job in Cyber Security at some point. We’ll see how it goes, and we’ll see if I’m able to do what I need to do to achieve that. I pushed myself to get an A+ Cert back in the day, which is still “good for life”, so I’m sure I can buckle down and study for the Security+ cert and pass it.

That’s the end of this entry. To you reader I’d say enjoy the rest of your weekend, find something fun and creative to do, and don’t let the “Sunday blues” get you down. You’re blessed to have a job in this climate, so just keep marching forward and doing your thing. Til next time!