Month: December 2025

It’s the end of Christmas Day and I must say it was a great day. I enjoyed spending time with my wife and my housecat. I just listened to music ,worked on music on my new music device I received for Christmas, and all around just relaxed. I’m off work until 1/5/26, so I’m looking forward to more days like this upcoming. I need to upload some more music to Distrokid and write some lyrics to some beats I’ve been working on. I have absolutely zero aspirations to be “in the industry”. I just enjoy music and hip hop in particular. Hip hop is a lifestyle and making beats, DJing, and rhyming are just a part of it.

I got the Roland P-6 from Santa this year for Christmas, and its a neat little device. I’m looking forward to learning to use it more and more, but I’ve already figured out the workflow on it, as its very similar to the Roland 404 mk2. It’s lithium battery powered and much more portable than the 404 mk2, so I’m hoping I can take it to work with me and work on some music on my lunch breaks or breaks in general. We’ll see how that goes, but that’s the idea at this point.

I wish we had more family here that we could have hung out with though. We used to go to my wife’s mom’s house where she lived with my wife’s sister. We would exchange gifts and eat a nice dinner and just hang out. Those days are gone, because both of them have passed away in recent years. It really sucks, because I realize now that I didn’t truly appreciate those times for what they were. They weren’t judgmental like my family or negative, they were good people who just wanted to be around family for the holidays. I really squandered that opportunity for a while, although in recent years I kind of lightened up and took my shoes off and enjoyed spending time with them.

I want to be able to get my wife and I closer to her daughter and grandson, so we can be more of a family and enjoy time with each other. I want us to create our own memories and always have them to look back on ya know? Hopefully that will happen in the near future and we’ll be able to have family nearby that we can go spend time with and hang out with. I want to teach my step-grandson how to make music and see if it’s something he’d be interested in. I want to show him what IT work is like to see if he’d be interested in that. He’s a smart kid, and the world is his oyster right now. He can build himself up to be whatever he wants to be right now. I’m sure his mom is aware of that, but I’d like to be there just to re-iterate it.

Anyways, have a Merry Christmas leading into the New Year. I hope you got some cool toys and that you got to spend time with loved ones, even if it’s only a hamster or goldfish. Enjoy your life to the fullest and always appreciate the small things. L8z!

It’s almost Christmas, and I’m looking forward to some time off work. The company I’m working for takes a good week and a half off and shuts down. I’m going to relax during that time, work on music, and spend time with my wife. We may go out of town to San Diego or some place else briefly. Well bring the cat along with us wherever we go, because I don’t want her to be at home by herself and feel lonely. That cat sleeps on my chest every night and we have a very strong bond with each other. She loves me very much and I love her.

My wife Laura is a night owl, so she stays up pretty late, but we cuddle in the AM almost every day and that’s OUR bonding time. I wish we didn’t have to work and had enough money to live off of and enjoy our lives. I would become a night owl with her and we’d stay up all night hanging out and enjoying each other’s spirit. Ah one can dream! Maybe we’ll win the Powerball or Mega Millions lottery and the universe will make that dream come true!

Work sucks as usual. I work in IT Support, and the company I’m at hires a lot of “interns” and “contractors” to work for them. They do a mass hiring and mass terminations all at the same time. This time of year is one of those times, and I don’t understand why no one has the common sense to stagger things out. Why are there 13 people starting on one day, then the next week there’s no one starting? Why not have 6 start one day, then 7 the next week or two weeks out, that way IT can prepare and have equipment ready and not be under the gun to get all that crap done. Not only that, but they give us such short notice with the tickets they put in for the new hires, usually at the last minute. It drives me nuts and its one of the reasons I want to find another job.

I really want to work remotely from home and stop doing “Desktop Support”. I would rather be on a remote helpdesk where we answer phone calls, emails, and do chats to help people out. All this running around like a chicken with it’s head cut off is wack. The universe still won’t let that happen for me. I’ve applied to GoDaddy to be remote tech support there and they don’t give me the opportunity. It sucks because I know I’d be a lot happier in life working from home and being able to do stuff around the house on my breaks, etc. Go to the grocery store on lunch breaks and all that. During Covid, I got to do those things and it was awesome. I would also practice playing the keyboard on my lunch break sometimes which was good for my soul.

The fact that I haven’t gotten that job yet is proof that the universe can be really shitty at times and doesn’t want you to be happy for the most part. It wants you to struggle, survive, and constantly produce stress induced loosh. Look up what loosh is and go down the rabbit hole of whose collecting it and all that. I truly believe that’s true, because it explains a lot of what is going on in this Earth realm of ours. I do my best to ignore the things that drive me nuts and make me angry, but you end up bottling things like that up until one day you explode.

Those people you see that shoot up places, or kill everyone in the house, I wonder if they didn’t just get fed up with the BS and go insane for a brief moment when they committed the acts. It’s really sad the state of this world. Homelessness is at an all time high. People are depressed and on pharmaceuticals for it. People are angry and road raging on the roads every day. We are suffering from textbook zoochosis. That’s where animals in captivity start to realize they are captives, even subconsciously and it depresses them and makes them lash out. We gotta figure out how to break out of this cycle and bring humanity into a space and place where they can enjoy their lives and not be slaves to the system.

Have a Merry Christmas, and a great New Year. I hope you get time off to relax, recharge, and go back to “the suck” re-invigorated and ready to keep fighting. Peace, love, and light to you reader, and stay up!