Author: DJ GodsOwn

Life is full of hardship. We lose people, things don’t go our way. It can be very rough to put a smile on your face sometimes. The thing to remember is that no one said life would be easy. It’s a trial for something greater I believe in the afterlife. Dolores Cannon used to say in her books that life is a test and this realm we call Earth is a “school” of sorts. We are here to learn unconditional love and the power of forgiveness.

Even when you feel slighted by someone, you have to learn to forgive them and don’t hold grudges or hate in your heart for people. My mother-in-law Geraldine once told me that “To forgive is divine”. She is absolutely right about that and I believe she’s graduated on to the next existence because she was definitely loving and forgiving in her lifetime. That is my goal as well and I am constantly working on it.

My step-daughter is going through an issue where her dad is passing away very soon. I feel sympathy for her, and I wish her mom and I could be there for her just to provide emotional support. It’s really crazy how life changes so drastically all of a sudden. We grow older and our parents pass away and leave us on this Earth with whatever instruction they instilled in us when we were younger. I’m not looking forward to the day my mom passes on. It’s going to be rough, because we communicate almost daily and she’s a major part of my life.

I have my paranoid ideations about my mom sometimes, but I still love her as a person. I like her personality and we get along well. Life is definitely not a joke, but you can’t take it too seriously. So many things are going to befall you in this lifetime, the most important thing is how you handle them. You have to be mature and take things head on. Never be afraid, and always stand tall when the dust settles. Whoever might be reading this, I wish you the best in your life journey and hope you find the resolve to be the best, most loving, forgiving, and righteous person you can be. God bless you.

-Saraph

So I’ve had my SP 404 mk2 for a while now, and its a great little device. I haven’t been brining it to work with me this summer, because its too hot in the car to leave it in there, and I don’t want to bring it into the office because I can’t keep an eye on it the entire time. Not saying that anyone at my job is a thief, but you never know. People “get got” like that all the time. I think I’ll bring it with me and lock it in my desk drawer since I have a key for it now.

I am considering selling it though, because AKAI released some plugins that make the use of the 404 mk2 with my MPC Key 61 obsolete. You can do stutters, brakes, lofi, and a bunch of other stuff with this plugin called Fly Tape II. Maybe I’ll take the 404 to work with me this week and see if I fall in love with it again. If I do, I’ll keep it. If I don’t, Guitar Center here we come to get ripped off on the price you’ll give for equipment, KEKW.

I have some debts to repay, so I could use the money towards that and feel better about things in that regard. I don’t like “owing”, so I gotta get that knocked out somehow. I was thinking about picking up a second job, but its hard to find a part time job on the weekends. I’ve tried applying at gas stations, 711s, and smoke shops before but I never hear back from them. I don’t know if its because I’m big and black, or if they feel I’m overqualified when I give them my resume, but it sucks. My wife tells me I can be very intimidating to people at times, but I’m a super mellow dude.

When I’m walking down the street and a white chick is coming the other way, she’s probably intimidated, but she don’t know I’m probably singing Hulk Hogan’s theme song “Real American” to myself as we walk by each other KEKW. That or thinking about getting home, vaping some herb and making music or playing Battlefield 6. Anyway I’m going to enjoy this Sunday off and get some good R & R in. Have a good start to your week and don’t sweat the small stuff. L8r!

-Saraph

So I started a beat yesterday and it’s turning out real nice! I like how it’s developing a lot and I’m looking forward to mastering it and making it sound the best it can. I used stems to pull the instruments and bass away from the drums and vocals, and it turned out really well on standalone MPC. The standalone MPC has a weaker stems algorithm than the Desktop MPC 3.0 software does, but it came through this time, so I’m happy with it.

I want to write some rhymes to go along with this beat, and I have to push myself to get it done. I feel good this Sunday AM, so I think I can do it today. I’m going to vape some herb, take a CBD gummy, and put pen to pad. I always have good ideas in my head for some cool rhymes, but I am not in a position to write them down at times. Hopefully today I can tap into the Akashic records and I can pull down some dope ideas. I’m wearing my pyramid on my head this early AM so I can prepare my brain to work at it’s optimal ability.

Tomorrow I have to go back to work and I just really wish I didn’t have to spend my best hours in the day working for a corporation. I know I don’t HAVE to do it, but the alternative is really no choice at all. You have to get up and go to work to make money to pay your bills. It’s a part of life in this society, and if you don’t get with it you’ll be left behind. Sure, you can become an entrepreneur, but everybody doesn’t have the startup capital to do something like that. Many entrepreneurs started their business from capital they earned at a well paying 9 to 5 job. They didn’t spend a lot and were able to save money. They lived frugally and eventually they had enough money saved to fund a business venture.

I love music, and I sometimes wonder why GOD didn’t allow me to get involved with it at an earlier age. Who knows what would have happened, but perhaps it would have been very bad for my life. I trust that GOD has my best interest at heart, and that me discovering DJing and beat-making in 2015 and 2018 was probably for the best. The music industry is a grimy place and there’s a lot of wolves, snakes, and spiders in that space. I would like for my music, right now, to gain a bit of traction and garner me some followers, but I need to advertise more, stream, and stuff like that to get people onboard.

I just got approved for another year contract at my IT job. That’s cool to know I’ll have a job in this climate for now, but I would really like to be able to work from home. I was much happier when I was doing that and it was nice to be able to work on my MPC on my lunch break in a comfortable setting, or go to the grocery store and grab some food for lunch while it’s not that busy/crazy in there. I keep applying for work from home jobs, but none of those have come to fruition. If I could get that type of job, we could look to move to a much cheaper area and I could stay home with my wife and we’d be fine. Hopefully, GOD will see my want in this and make it happen.

Take care of yourself reader, enjoy your Monday, and don’t let life stress you out. Til next time!

So the MPC Live 3 dropped today and it looks pretty cool. I almost bought one, but the universe let me know that wasn’t a wise decision, so I cancelled the order and kept my money. With the MPC 3.6 update, you get a lot of cool new features on the “regular” MPC models, so I think I’ll rock my MPC Key 61 a while longer. My Key 61 is pretty nice as it is, and the main differences with the new MPC Live 3 that would matter to me is an 8 core processor and 8GB of RAM, which enables them to offer the “Pro” version of the stems algorithm in standalone mode. That’s cool, but I can get the same thing by hooking my current MPC up to my computer and using it that way.

Anyway, the Live 3 looks dope. If I had disposable income like that I probably would be waiting for mine to arrive right now, but I don’t, so I’m just going to keep it pushing. Hopefully one day I’ll get to a point where I can drop $1.7k on a whim, but right now I’m not in that space. I bet if I could maintain the current wages I earn but in a different, less expensive state than CA, I could do that sort of stuff for myself and my wife. We want to get to Connecticut, which I’m not sure if its a lesser cost of living, but I don’t hear people complaining about that place like they do Cali, so there must be something better there.

I’m going to work on a new beat over the weekend, and i intend to rhyme over it. We’ll see how all that goes. I should call my buddy Aaron and go over the lyrics I write to see if he has any input on them, since he’s a pretty good rapper himself. Anyhow, I just wanted to chime in and add a blog entry on the site here. I’ll post more coming up in the near future. L8r.

-Saraph

So now mass media and social media are portraying the idea that people in America want a race war. I don’t think that’s the case. Sure there are ignorant people out there of all races, but the average person just wants to survive and live a decent life. These people and actions that are being highlighted don’t represent the identity of the majority of the public. Most people just want to be happy, take care of their family, keep a roof over their head, and food on the table. From what I can tell, a lot of the people yelling about a Civil War/Race War look like do nothing people who are just angry at the world because they feel like they were dealt a bum hand or they aren’t happy with themselves.

That’s about what it boils down to. People need to stop being so angry all the time and wanting to watch the world burn. I understand their anger about having to work, having to pay bills, but that’s the way things are right now and you have to learn to cope and adapt to them. Maybe one day there will be a change, where people can have more free time and can spend time pursuing their hobbies and enjoyments, but for now it’s 40+ hours a week and doing what you have to do. Just take sanity days off occasionally and you’ll be fine.

My issue is the fact that a lot of us are willing to get up and participate in wage slavery, but we aren’t being compensated enough to truly do what we need to do with the costs of the things around us. I’ve heard that there are people in San Francisco who earn $100k yearly, but they still need to have a roommate to live in a decent, safe part of the city, because they couldn’t afford to on their own. That’s crazy and things like that need to stop. If you’re willing to get up and go to work, you should be rewarded with enough money to pay for your home, pay for food, pay for gas for your vehicle, and have some disposable income to have some fun in your life. I don’t know what needs to happen to resolve that.

Capitalism is a huge part of the problem. The greed of a lot of companies makes things the way they are here. From banks, to leasing offices for rentals, to gas station/oil companies, to food service/grocery stores, everyone wants maximum profit no matter what it’s doing to the balance of society. The grocery stores aren’t going to lower their prices just so people can afford more food to eat. They don’t care. The people at the top of the chain of that grocery chain want as much money as they can get so they can buy their yachts, mansions, supercars, and live the life of Riley. That’s fine that they want those things, but at a certain point you’re just being gluttonous with money. What’s the difference between 1 billion dollars, and 500 million with the cost of most things in the world?

If I owned a company and I had the option to really tighten up on things and pay my employees shit, not give them decent benefits, hire contractors instead of making them a part of the company – all in order to make a profit of 1 billion I wouldn’t do it. If the flipside of that was that I make 500 million, but I can give my employees bonuses, pay them a decent living wage, give them great benefits, provide them with free snacks to eat in case their money is tight and they need to eat at work – I would do that instead. The latter company would have a good “business karma” as well. There is karma in everything and you will pay the piper at some point. With the way America is doing things, the country’s karma is in the crapper. At some point it’s going to fall because it’s built on greed, negativity, lies and deceit. We could change that, but it would take a massive effort from the people sitting on top, and I just don’t think they care enough to do that. Anyways, til next time reader!

Well it’s my birthday today, and I’m 44 years old. I don’t feel much different than I did when I was 21. I’m wiser and understand more about the world around me, but I’m still “me”. I feel like I should be a bit further ahead in life as far as financially and things like that. A lot of that has to do with where I live right now. Me and my wife are in SoCal, and it’s VERY expensive to live here. Rent, food, gas, anything you NEED costs too much. We want to move to Connecticut, but that’s easier said than done. We gotta pay to get all the stuff we want moved across the country, as well as our car and our bodies. You need capital to do all of that and it’s just not showing up.

Hopefully GOD will make a way. I’d like to live closer to my step-daughter and step-grandson. I think we could all really help each other out and look out for one another. I want to help raise my step-grandson, and explain to him the things he’ll encounter as a young man into being a man. I don’t want him to make the same mistakes I did, and I want to be a male voice of guidance for him so he can be the best he can be. Hopefully I’ll get that opportunity in this life, as my wife is too old for us to have kids ourselves. I’d also like to help out my step-daughter and give her a break from being a mom sometimes.

Life is very interesting and I think your mission is to grow and try to understand people and the world around you the further you go along. That’s why it’s so sad when people die young. They never get a chance to correct the mistakes of their youth and learn and grow from them. You have to find peace and love in this world and once we ALL find that, I think things will get better for the world as a whole. Right now, the programming and drama going on in mass media is debilitating to young people. It’s teaching them horrible ideals and morals, as well as fostering proclivities toward negative vibrations and frequencies.

Nikola Tesla said that if you want to understand the secrets of the universe, think in terms of frequency and vibration. Everything is in motion, and everything has a frequency. You can raise or lower your mental frequency, to rise above the negativity that seems to be permeating throughout our physical spaces. On this 44th birthday of mine, I take a vow to rise above the negativity, and stay in a positive mindset. When “stinking thinking” starts to take hold in my mind-space, I will change the channel, and think of something positive. It’s the only way to fly, and the only way you can hope to achieve happiness. Peace, love, and light to you reader, and have a good one!

So my birthday is in a few days, and I’ll be 44 years old. I don’t feel much different than I did when I was 21. I’m wiser and have a lot more responsibility, but I’m still myself. I’ve learned a lot of things about life, how to deal with certain things, how to treat women, etc. Things I wasn’t necessarily taught when I was growing up for the most part. I feel like I have a decent grasp on how to behave when moving through the world.

There’s a programming that takes place for young men as they are growing up. From the music they listen to, the movies they watch. Your parents are forced to go to work because they are wage slaves and the TV and media program the children, and mostly for the worse. From viewing women as bitches and hoes, to having a me first mentality, the programming from mass media is all wrong. For most parents, especially single ones, it can be hard to teach your child wisdom when you’re working 40+ hours a week and tired all the time. You don’t have the energy to really go hard in the paint when it comes to training the child.

That’s why I feel like we need to go back to the way it was in the 50s, 60s and some of the 70s, where we understood it takes a village to raise a child. We have to get a reign on the kids where an adult can tell them what’s right and what’s wrong. Back in the day, if you were caught messing up as a young person, a neighborhood person could reprimand you. You’d get in trouble with that person, then they would tell your mom or dad and you’d be in trouble with them!

To be honest though, the things we see going on with the kids today is Biblical. The Bible talks about child turning against parent and parent turning against child in the “last days”. I definitely feel like we are approaching Revelations, and that a lot of things are coming to pass. Time will tell how it all unfolds, but I’m interested to see the part everyone plays in it. Hopefully one day, we can have a time of enlightenment, and go back to an age where we raised children properly. We all want peace and some good company, and hopefully one day, everyone will be able to achieve that in their own way. L8r!

So my stance has taken a complete 180 on marijuana. I’ve been vaping it lately out of my Firefly 2+ dry herb vaporizer, and it’s really helping me be at peace, even with all the stressors and dramas of life. My favorite strain as of late is Grandaddy Purple, as it’s a great Indica type strain that mellows me out and helps with aches and pains and a general sense of Zen. I know the ancient people of Kemet (Egypt) used to use it during full moons and as a sacred medicinal herb. They used it to enlighten themselves and open their chakras further.

People in our day kind of mis-use marijuana. It’s not meant to smoke and have raunchy sex or smoke and do a drive-by shooting on your “opps”. It’s meant to help you achieve homeostasis within your body, mind, and spirit. The people who tell me they have anxiety when they smoke, I’d be willing to bet money they’ve done negative things while under it’s influence and when they smoke it triggers that guilt and/or anxiety. They need to do some heavy meditation to break that connection to the bad feelings and only move forward with positivity and reverence for the plant’s medicinal properties.

I’m glad I gave the flower another chance and that it has worked out this well. I’ve been smoking again for about 4 months now and I feel good with the plant’s effects on me. I wish I could partake of it more often, but I normally vape before work to prepare my mind for a stressful day, and then after work to unwind from that same stress. It’s simply my coping mechanism with being a wage slave and working most of my waking hours. It helps me to be creative with my music and helps me focus on the music more-so than if I didn’t vape it.

My creativity has definitely increased since I started smoking again. It helps me to not rush the process of making a song/beat, and just enjoy the journey. I can be a very “rushy” type person, so herb just helps me chill out a bit and mellow out. I probably have some form of ADD as well, and the Indica variety of Grandaddy Purple slows my thinking down and helps me focus on a long-winded tasks like writing, making music, or Djing. I love to toke and write in my journal. Just about my thoughts on what’s going on in the world and different things like that. I need to start writing rhymes, because from what I’ve tried it seemed pretty decent, especially when compared with the mumble-mess the young generation is being pushed to put out to the masses.

Overall, I would suggest giving “Mary Jane” a shot. Since it’s legal in most states now, there’s no reason to not give it a try and see if it will help you deal with stress and take some of the weight off your shoulders. There’s a lot of strains to try, so find yours and don’t give up until you do. It’s out there, you just need to find it. Once you do, make sure you always respect the plant and keep the thinking at a high level and in a positive space. L8r!

So a nice lady at my job got canned yesterday. It was really a sad situation and I feel sorry for her. She was very nice and to me, she was doing a very good job. She was agreeable and helpful in so many ways that I’m not sure management was aware of. I’m not sure why she was fired, but I wish her the best and hope that she lands on her feet.

I know she was working a second job to make ends meet, and I hope she gets another assignment with her security company so she doesn’t have to worry and struggle about how she’s going to pay rent, pay bills, etc. She’d been at the company for a long time, and I guess that didn’t count for anything with the people who made the decision to fire her. She never did anything negative to my knowledge, she never stole from the company, she didn’t get into fights and arguments with people. She was always a ray of sunshine when you came in the AM every day because she worked at the front desk.

Corporate America doesn’t care about us. We are all disposable to them and they only want to use you for your skills and talents and they figure they are doing you a favor by hiring you. Things have changed so much in the work place since back in the day. Back in the day, the employer valued the employee. You would get Christmas bonuses and had a retirement pension after you aged out and left the work force. It’s not like that any more. Some places offer pensions, usually government jobs, but for the most part, these companies will offer is a 401k with some degree of them matching your contributions.

It’s really messed up that they can just fire you with no severance pay or any such thing, and you’re just out on your ass and have to scramble to put your life back together. Firing someone is a very big deal for the person it’s happening to. It should be a last resort as long as the person is doing their job to a decent degree. Short of them going into the CEOs office and taking a crap on his desk, you shouldn’t look to shake up someone’s life like that. People have no empathy and don’t give a shit because it’s not them. It’s part of the reason why I’ve grown to hate people. They are judgmental, un-empathetic, and selfish for the most part.

Nice people always get the short end of the stick in this f’d up world and I’m tired of it. What is going on? One of my co-workers told me she got canned because she was late to work a lot. Its like, we live in one of the WORST traffic environments in the world and you’re going to give someone a hard time for being late to work? That’s stupid and it’s dumb and it’s WRONG! That chick was a sweetheart and it really puts a sour taste in my mouth with the company I’m working for. End rant/

So I woke up pretty early today. Around 4am. Actually, that’s about the time I usually wake up. I like to be up before everyone else. I wish Ralph’s and Walmart were open that early so when I need to get water, cat food, or something else, I can go without dealing with a huge traffic jam of people that you normally find during the day hours.

It’s Sunday and I plan on spending the day at home. I’m going to work on music and DJ, as well as read a few books. I just finished reading “Making Beats” by Joseph G. Schloss and it was a good book. It didn’t teach you how to make beats, rather it gave you an insight to the history of beat-making and the mindset behind being a good/great beat-maker. I really enjoyed the read and it’s another book I can add to my collection as completed.

I bought an Ethiopian Bible recently, and I want to read that from cover to cover as well. A lot of people say it’s the “real” Bible, as opposed to the altered King James version. From what I’ve read so far, I can definitely see that being the case. The Ethiopian Bible has books like “The Book of Enoch” and others that were omitted from the King James version for some reason. I’m looking forward to reading it and seeing what knowledge I can glean from it. Hopefully there’s something in there that will be an “aha” moment.

I bought a notebook from Walmart that I’m going to be using as my rhyme notes. I want to write my lyrics in it that I’m going to use over my beats. I enjoy writing, but it’s definitely not easy to write a decent rhyme. It’s completely different from the journalistic type approach I typically take in writing, so it will be interesting to see if I can adapt my style and make something worth listening to. I’m trying to avoid swearing/cussing, as well as trying to avoid negative topics like killing people, degrading women, and hard drug use. I have to keep to those tenants and make good, informative, relatable music.

I also need to study to take the Security+ certification so I can hopefully land a job in Cyber Security at some point. We’ll see how it goes, and we’ll see if I’m able to do what I need to do to achieve that. I pushed myself to get an A+ Cert back in the day, which is still “good for life”, so I’m sure I can buckle down and study for the Security+ cert and pass it.

That’s the end of this entry. To you reader I’d say enjoy the rest of your weekend, find something fun and creative to do, and don’t let the “Sunday blues” get you down. You’re blessed to have a job in this climate, so just keep marching forward and doing your thing. Til next time!